Living The Just Peachy Life
My optifast Journey Post 2
Two days ago I went to the Wake Forest Baptist Weight-loss Center. I met with the "fitness guru", the doctor, the behavior therapist, and the "food nazi" (registered dietitian). Okay, the fitness guru, I will probably cuss under my breath more than once. The food nazi, and I say that with all respect, is just doing what I am asking her to do!
So the plan is Optifast shakes and soups. My initial goal is 50 lbs. My weight yesterday was 216. I am laying it all on the line here, folks. I am not Jaba the Hut fat, but at 5'6", I do qualify as morbidly obese. I am tired all the time. SOB if I try to do too much activity, and depressed about it all.
I want to lower my blood pressure and avoid medication, as well as, lower my blood sugar and cholesterol.
Hi, I'm a food addict.
So after answering questionnaires, spending 4 1/2 hours with experts. and spilling my heart to them, I find I am a binge eater with a food addiction. These are not easy things to admit. No one wants to admit they have addictive behaviors, or any behaviors that they can not control. I am a "control" kind of person. To admit that I don't have control is not easy. But, I don't have control over this. I want a cheeseburger, REALLY bad. Actually, two or three cheeseburgers. I have gone to McDonalds, and ordered a two cheeseburger combo meal, large size with fries AND a filet of fish sandwich. Now, sometimes I don't eat the Fish sandwich or all the fries. That makes me feel better, Like I have been good by leaving some of the fries or part/all of the third sandwich. But, then other times, I eat it all. Even though it makes me feel miserable; guilty, stomach hurts because of my food allergies, and nauseous. And then I am immediately thinking about my next meal. I think about my next meal before I have started the one I am on.........
If I am not thinking about my next meal, I am thinking about starting a diet, or feeling guilty for messing up the one I was supposed to be on, or trying to find the next one. Food, the amount, the kind, the what, where, when, how, is what is on my mind most of the time. It is mentally and physically exhausting. I look forward to what I can accomplish when I am not consumed by food.
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